Pray  For  Me

from  The Missing Factor

Spiritual  History  —  Spiritual  Destiny

Uranda   September 22, 1953

We have just passed through the Anniversary period of our Ministry. I feel that you have done some meditating upon the points we covered at that time. You will recognize—as one of the budding servers who was here and is now gone remarked to me on leaving—it was the wish that the Class had gotten a little bit further. It did not carry through to the adequate point of the outpouring of the spirit. Various factors were involved, and since the Convention period and the close of the Class, our group vibration has not allowed us to reach the point we should. This had less of a decline than in previous times, and I thank God for the progress, but we have not reached the point of letting the unifying power of the spirit manifest as we should. I would that during the next few weeks we should bear in mind that here there is a great need that this increased manifestation of the spirit of God should appear in our group, that it may be intensified for all who respond.

There have tended to be some distractions in various ways. There have been some tangent vibrations which have not been conducive to the achievement which we envision, and there are yet some cross-vibrations, some failures to understand one another and adequately appreciate one another, to effectively serve together. There are still evidences that there has not been an adequate clearing in forgiving one another. There are still certain tendencies to resentment patterns. And all of these things delay the fulfilment. Moment by moment and day by day we are rendering service, either for God or for the adversary. It is so vitally important that it be on the constructive side. The world situation is not in any sense cleared. Intensification of patterns continues in various ways. We have many evidences of God's provision and God's blessing, His guiding hand and protecting care, but we need to remember our responsibility in service.

In our recent Anniversary period of Meditation I undertook to open the vibration in a manner which would permit you to have a greater sense of sharing in the basic Commission. I have a very high regard for each one of you. I thank God for you. And you have been doing and are doing so very many things which are helpful, which help to build, to carry our program forward. For all of these things I thank God and pray God's blessing upon you. But there is that which I have not been able to achieve in relationship to the development of attitude, inspiring the pattern of vision and function, and I have wondered what I could do.

Your vibrational patterns are more or less involved with each other. Broadly speaking, in recent times the problems that have arisen have not been on a clear-cut individual basis, in any one person. The vibratory factors of the Unit enter in and there are two or more people involved in various ways, and by reason of this involvement I cannot treat you, generally speaking, some of you, just as individuals. Some of you have kept the pattern remarkably clear in this regard, and I thank God for that; but with some of you it is not a clear individual pattern.

We cannot have a clear Unit pattern until we have clear individual patterns in relationship to those who make up the Unit. The larger thing is made out of the smaller thing. If in your process of understanding and appreciation of the principles that I have presented in recent times there could be a real clearing of your vibrational patterns individually, a real letting go of all factors of resentment, a real cycle of forgiving, letting go of all adverse attitudes one toward another, the way would open before us much more readily. I cannot overemphasize the fact that such cross-patterns defeat us to some degree. They delay. They make it harder for everyone. There seem to be blind spots with some, which makes it difficult to deal with these things effectively—blind spots where individuals do not see themselves in relationship to the specific principles to which I have directed your attention.

Experience is a school. Sometimes people have the same lesson repeated to them over and over again. And other than by living exemplification, inspiration, word and deed and attitude, working in the current, seeking to make it easy for you, I can do little but give instruction and direction. The mere fact that such instruction and direction are given is not enough. These things must be received into one's own life and made a living thing, and that was perhaps the outstanding factor in that Cycle of Illumination in respect to myself about which I spoke to you briefly during our Anniversary period of Meditation.

Sometimes I wonder. In that Cycle of Illumination I found for myself, or I was granted or given, a vision of the fact that human beings cannot live unto themselves alone, that there must be an acceptance of responsibility and willingness to serve, a centering and a steadiness in it. If there were some way of taking the Sword of Truth and just physically walking around you one by one and cutting away these unnecessary vibrational involvements with others so that you could be dealt with as individuals, it would appear to make things easier. For a time perhaps it would. But it is our interrelatedness that permits us to have real meaning, and I have no desire to take away either the interrelatedness or the meaning.

These vibrational involvements of various sorts make it necessary for all who are involved in a given factor to clear together. We cannot put our finger on just one person and say, “There is all the trouble.” I frankly do not know how to get you to see this point. I have talked about it and it has not been adequately heeded. You tend to keep yourselves involved in various ways. I cannot say that just one person is at fault. These factors of involvement keep you from being you, and keep our group from being what it should be. They keep our service from being adequate; they delay our fulfilment; they prevent us from having adequate material substance; they make added work for all concerned; they increase the weariness and do absolutely nothing to increase blessings in any way, shape or form.

I do not know how to say it so that my word might be heard. I do not know how to say it so that its importance might be realized. I do not want to say this from the standpoint of attempting to compel by fear, and yet unless the factor is adequately recognized and you begin to do your part on an overall basis in regard to it, you are going to produce a situation, sooner or later, where I will be forced to stop holding services, even if I am here. I will be forced to take the position that when adequate consideration has been given to what I have presented I will present more.

It can work out so that most of my ministry can be carried forward from Sunrise Ranch. That is the way I would like so much to have it, because I have no desire to travel. I have no desire to go anywhere. I have no desire to leave what I conceive to be my home on earth. There is no reason why most of my ministry cannot be carried forward right here, letting the people come to me, which means letting them come to you. But if it is not allowed to work out here fairly soon, on a better basis than it yet has, I am going to be forced to spend more time in the field or work out some kind of a substitute pattern.

It comes into the field of your attitudes toward each other. If I could somehow cause you to see that your attitudes toward each other are your attitudes toward me, regardless of what you think about it, we could clear the matter very quickly. There isn't anything here that needs to be a big problem. It can work out very nicely. But your attitudes toward each other actually characterize your true attitude toward me, whether you have thought of it that way or not. If you could come to the point of daring to really trust me to take care of the problems that yet remain in your brothers and your sisters here—I would not have very much problem, if you would do that. The problems in you individually, that are truly your own problems, are of very little consequence actually, nothing but what I could work out with you very readily. It is these unnatural involvements in relationship to each other that superimpose problems which do not belong, complicate the pattern and make it difficult to clear the individual.

Someday perhaps you will find it in your hearts to believe in me enough, trust me enough, to actually give over the responsibility of the things that are wrong in each other to me. If you would just trust me on that point. It is the point where you show your greatest distrust of me, and it is the thing that weakens your trust in other regards, where you think you trust me. You make that trust to be of less effect than it should be because you have not reached a point where you trust me to take care of what is wrong in the people around you.

I might point out that this has been, in times past, the devil's trump card in bringing to naught any group effort that has been put forth. It is something that has never yet been surmounted by any group, under any leadership, since the fall of man. Now it is quite possible that in some groups the leader could not be trusted in regard to these things. In any case, human beings seem to feel that they are entirely justified in the attitude they have toward each other. If I could only get you to see how you tend to nullify yourselves, make your good works to be of no value, or of little value comparatively speaking, and how this one change would allow an increase in power and effectiveness through us far beyond my ability to describe it. If I could somehow convince you of that, inspire you to accept it, this one truth, so many other things would begin to work with larger, deeper meaning. But so far I have not been able to inspire that degree of trust in relationship to these particular things.

You can see such and such a thing in your neighbour—therefore it is there. You are justified in your attitudes—in your own eyes, at least. You do not trust me to take care of it. Instead of having an adequately real attitude of simple love and understanding, giving each other opportunity to grow, doing your part and being truly fair with each other and me, the pattern gets distorted and delayed. This is our biggest problem. Not money, not finances, not anything else. This is the thing that keeps us from being with one accord in one place, in the sense that will permit the greater outpouring of the Holy Spirit. If I could ever get you to the point of trusting me in this one thing.

I have asked myself over and over again, and particularly recently: Has there been anything in my own conduct or attitude, my function in leadership, to cause my people to feel that they simply cannot trust me in this regard? Why should they distrust me in this with such persistence and feel that they are so justified in refusing to grant me that pattern of trust which would let me get the job done? In examining my pattern of ministry to you, my service, my leadership, my function in all regards, I have not been able to find any valid reason. If there is a blind spot in this regard I wish some of you who are able to comprehend such things would tell me about it. Perhaps I need to grow. If there is something I have failed to see I would like to know and clear it.

There isn't anything I could talk to you about tonight that is of more importance than this. There is no greater need in relationship to our program, so that our endeavor will not smother itself. Oh I know your good works and your service and your devotion and your sincerity, your love for me, and the ways in which you have trusted me. Oh yes, I know. And I would not say it has reached the point of desperation yet. But I never could understand why ill conditions had to reach the point of desperation before doing something about them, and this is the thing that is tending to smother our own endeavor. Oh, you trust me with your life, you trust me to guide you and help you, but you just simply cannot trust me to take care of the job with your neighbor. Apparently you do not consider me to be worthy of that trust. But why? I have asked myself the question. Why? Why is it?

Until I can find some way to inspire you to the acceptance of the truth in regard to these things, we are in a situation where we will be slowing down—not speeding up and increasing in power, but slowing down and becoming weaker, less meaningful, less potent, until finally this group as such will smother itself, and the body of many members as such will die, and the individuals will be scattered. I have no desire that any such things should be, and I feel very confident we will find some way to clear this self-smothering, self-defeating pattern. It is going to take a willingness to trust me in these things, a willingness to clear the pattern of your attitudes one for another, your willingness to really forgive and cease having resentments, so that you cease having prejudiced attitudes toward each other. If I could inspire you somehow to stop being concerned about how well other people understand you, so that you would become very much concerned with how well you understand others right here, we would be on the way. Understanding others, understanding their motivations, understanding the reasons—that kind of understanding is the basis of real service.

We would not have any service here if it were not for the fact that I do understand you, to some degree at least. This service is built, in the central sense, upon my understanding of you and other human beings. If I have not demonstrated the reality of understanding you, I do not know what it would take to convince you. When I can convince individuals that I can understand them as individuals and show them that I can help them individually, why is it that they will not believe that I can understand other people, and they will not trust me to help other people meet their problems in season? If I have understood you, why can you not believe that I do understand your neighbor?

If we ever clear this point we will be well on the way to the outpouring of the Holy Spirit and to the increase in power. As the Master said, “For ye shall receive power after that the Holy Spirit is come upon you.” We will be on the way. My job will be made easier; the light will shine more vibrantly; the door will be open for many others to come here to receive our ministry and to share in making manifest the Lord's provision. There is so much to be done by so few.

So tonight, in concluding this hour of Meditation, I am going to ask a very special favor of each one of you. I am going to ask you to pray for me, that I may find a way to sell this idea, this truth, this fact, to this group of people right here. If you will pray for me that I may be given the wisdom, the understanding, the persuasive power necessary to sell this one idea, this truth, then perhaps, in the inspiration of the spirit, I will be able to present the matter, say the word, or do the deed, that will open the door. I have presented it tonight so that you could see the problem that I am facing, and I sincerely ask your prayers, that I may receive the wisdom, the understanding, the power of the spirit, to accomplish this one thing.

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