Be Source Self
Yujin Pak October 17, 2021
Seoul, South Korea
Over the course of the last several services we spoke about beginning a new cycle. Having come through the roughly one hundred days of a very deep purification cycle in our collective here in Korea, we begin a new cycle. The sudden coming of the winter perhaps can be seen as the beginning of a water cycle after the fire cycle in the fall. In order to begin this new water cycle, starting today four times consecutively I will do the service myself over the next four weeks. A long time ago when I was in my twenties I read a sentence when I was in England that left a very deep impression on me. The sentence was this: “The truth is the death of me.” In a simple, very direct and profound way, it stated the center of truth. The truth is the death or dissolution of me, me with a small “m.” “But, but…. If I die or dissolve, then what? That seems a little scary.”
Two weeks ago, I spoke about that place where time has disappeared. That place is ultimately where I as little “me” has disappeared. It’s the place where the Self beyond “self” abides. In that place where “self” has disappeared, in that place stands the Tree of Life, the One I truly Am. Wouldn’t that tree be perhaps not so bad a tree? And not a bad trade! Instead of the small, frightened self, a Self perhaps I have never known before, a Self beyond self, a Self that is one with the Source, that is the Source. Truth is the dissolution of me as I have known myself. In the beginning of this new water cycle I thought, “What is the invitation of this cycle?” To stand in the place where the self I have known has disappeared. That is the invitation. An invitation to the dissolution of myself as I have known it.
In the moment on the cross when Jesus spoke his last words just before he lost consciousness, it is recorded that the veil of the Temple was rent. The veil was rent in two. What is the veil? The veil in the Temple was something like a drape or a curtain that separated. The renting of the veil was the renting of the separation between man and God. Perhaps we can see this was the most significant event in the history of humanity, when the separating veil that was present for so long was rent open. What had separated humanity from God was finally parted open. Yet though the veil was rent, history went on as though it wasn’t rent, as if nothing had changed. The words are recorded that the veil was rent, but the reality and experience of it didn’t continue because there were not those who moved with it into oneness with God. The purpose for renting the veil was for others to follow into oneness with God. But, while mankind worshipped Jesus from afar, they did not follow Him into the experience of oneness with God.
For those with Buddhist backgrounds it is okay to understand this as the dissolution of the wall of karma that Buddha brought. The purpose of what Jesus opened was for that door to be opened yet further, opened so wide that everyone with the ability to feel would feel that, in fact, a door was opened in heaven, and more could follow in his footsteps. The meaning of the renting of the veil is that a door was opened in heaven through the action of Jesus. In the book of Revelation in the Bible there is a passage that speaks of a door that is opened in heaven. I want to read that passage. This record by John shows a number of things occurred in his consciousness, and then this experience:
“After this I looked, and, behold, a door was opened in heaven: and the first voice which I heard was as it were of a trumpet talking with me; which said, Come up hither, and I will shew thee things which must be hereafter.”
“Come up hither” is the invitation that my teacher, Martin Exeter, extended to me: “Come up hither to where I am.” If we hear such an invitation as if from a trumpet, “come up hither,” and in that voice is contained radiance and love and the power of Being itself, then we may feel a compulsion to go up higher. Perhaps there’s a compulsion to rise up to where the invitation is sounding, but at the same time in our two hands there is a huge amount of baggage that we’re hanging on to. We think of what is in our hands as two very, very heavy bags full of all manners of things. There is no chance of moving up one centimeter because of all the baggage.
One of these bags especially in Korean society contains “social image.” Perhaps it doesn’t apply to everyone; perhaps it does somewhat to many. Perhaps those in their twenties do not care so much about social image, but maybe some do. As people age there is a tendency for social image, face and reputation to take more significant hold. Among many people I’ve met who have begun the process of responding to the Truth, one of the barriers some have is the image of being a successful person—a successful, socially attractive person. But this is food for the human ego! For us to enter into the Truth we must release image, our concept about attractiveness, status, and significance. Truth is the death of my image.
Long ago Martin spoke some words which were a guiding star for me from then on. He said, “Hear me, for that is the beginning. If you have heard me, respect me.” His words were an invitation but in some ways a command. Who can command that of anyone? His words to “respect me” were not to respect him personally, but to respect the place of Being that he was representing. To respect Being. “Hear me, respect me,” and then thirdly, “love me.” But then this was not “love me personally,” but to love the Lord, the Source being conveyed through me. To this point for many people it was not too difficult to do. But if you have taken that step, to love me, if you indeed love me, then the next command was: “Be me.” [greatcosmicstory.blogspot.com/2020/09/hear-me-me-me-me-martin-exeter.html] Perhaps it was fine to hear, to respect, to love. But to BE what was being represented, that was another step altogether. Those who stepped over that line to “BE me” as he was, were so much fewer in number. Be me.
But if we take these first three steps and do not go on to the fourth to BE the One, the meaning of that is failure. The whole purpose of the first three steps was only to come to the last: Be me. To be me as in Being, what must I, as the human facility, do? To be my True Self—which is what this invitation is—to be Source Self, I must release all of my human thoughts, plans, and self-image.
There are many Christians in this world, and to be a Christian is to love Jesus, to honor him, and to serve him. Yet those who truly accept and follow His first commandment, I have hardly seen. Jesus offered just two commandments. But the second is not so important because if you really follow the first, the second is automatic. The first commandment was: “Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind.” With all of your being. To love the Lord thy God with all of your being. Yet for many Christians they are stopped at the third step. Love me with your all. But the true meaning of that is not entered into for most people. The true meaning of that love is that if you truly love me, “Be me.” When we begin to truly understand finally the meaning of love, it begins to become obvious that it is to BE that which we love. But until then, many are left in a clueless state.
Be me, as in Source—isn’t this heresy? No. Love the Lord thy God with your all and thus be one with the Lord. When we come to understand this, the planning of one’s life becomes very simple. I want to describe the method. Have just one thought: “Be me.” There is no need to have any thoughts other than this. The truth is the dissolution of small “s” self. To love the Truth is to BE Self in Source.
Once I heard this invitation from Martin, ultimately I released all other thought, and have lived with this one thought: “Be me.” Having gone to Oxford, receiving this world famous scholarship with this bright path into the future, it meant absolutely nothing. “Be me.” This alone is significant. I have lived all those decades since with these words resounding, held in my heart and Being: “Be me.” This is the meaning of the first commandment. “Being me” in this deepest sense doesn’t mean to imitate Martin or imitate Jesus in some form of outer appearance or mannerism. Martin was British; he was somewhat less colorful in expression. So it doesn’t mean to follow the outer mannerism through which Being is expressed, but the vibration—the Tone of Being within what is being expressed through that inviting form—BE that Tone.
Letting go of one’s thoughts—this is such huge baggage that so many are holding on to. Among the thoughts is, “I can’t.” But it’s exactly to let go of that thought: “I can’t.” In fact, don’t think about yourself. It means to stop thinking so much about yourself. Stop thinking about oneself so much. Put one’s whole attention on this Being that we begin to recognize and vibrate with and feel. Put one’s whole response and Being to that, and let all my other thoughts about myself and my inadequacies go. All those thoughts emerging from the fearful self, leading one to the other and accumulating layer by layer, all of them are false.
“Hear me, respect me, love me, be me.” That’s it! Let everything else go! When we so love this one thing alone and with all our Being, and release all our thoughts and human plans, we come to discover that this one thing, that we have lost everything else for, is in fact the only true me. This is Me!
Have I felt so precious, this little self that I’ve been? That me is not who I am. There’s no treasure there. It’s like we think these two bags we’re holding in our hands are full of gold bars. But when we open the bags we see there are just rocks there. When we’ve come to the place of Being me in the truest meaning, we naturally turn around and become the one extending the invitation, “Come up hither.” Then we become the voice as of a trumpet, “Come up hither.” When we follow that invitation with our whole Being, the end of that following is to be the inviter.
I said we are beginning a new cycle here in Korea. Heretofore, I have invited steps one, two, and three. I invite the fourth step now: Be me. This is not a difficult thing. It takes a process, it’s true, but it’s not a difficult thing. It is to love just one thing. Is it difficult to love just one thing? It is only difficult if you want to love many other things. So it’s a choice. And thus the invitation is: Choose what you will love. The purpose of the Emissaries is to open this door to heaven and extend this invitation. But ultimately it is not the Emissary purpose, it is the purpose of Truth itself. The Truth extends the invitation: “Hear me, respect me, love me, but don’t stop there. BE Me.” In this way with this one-pointed direction we begin a new cycle of invitation.
