The One I Am!

The  One  I  Am!

Martin Exeter   August 19, 1984 a.m.

This is the day the Lord hath made, so the song went. Is it?—for us. Each of us individually decide. Again we share these moments together. This day, this hour, this moment may be the moment in our own experience, because of our own attitude, created by the spirit of the living God.

I wonder if I could speak for myself this morning and at the same time speak for each of you. If this can really be done, then we have the experience of oneness. I have a passage in mind from the Bible, which I will read in the first person, trusting that you share this viewpoint and outlook. It is a familiar passage from the early chapters of the book of Genesis.

“And I saw...”I trust these are your words as well as mine. “And I saw that the wickedness of my human ego—to the extent that it still exists, and it surely does—is great in the earth, and every imagination of the thoughts of this human ego’s heart are only evil continually.

“I regret having provided the life force for the continued existence of this human ego. And I am deeply saddened that it is so.

“Therefore I will withdraw my life force from this human ego, so that it may no longer exist on the face of the earth; and all that has been brought forth by reason of this, my human ego, may be dissolved; for I regret having provided the life force for these things to be.

“The world that I have created in this way is corrupt before me; for my own flesh has corrupted its way in the earth. So the end of this human ego state is come before me, for the earth is filled with violence through this. And, behold, I will dissolve it from the earth.

"I create a new body, a new state, in which all that is of life, all that is mine, may be preserved.”

These are the words that I speak for myself and for all of you who will receive them as your own. Does the human ego stance persist in experience, so that much of what is seen is seen from this viewpoint? When it is seen from this viewpoint the thoughts, the feelings, the words and the actions spew forth; corruption is paramount; violence and conflict are engendered and increased. What I am saying you know. Or do you? I know it’s true, do you? If so, withdraw life force from the human ego.

Some have thought this would be a big deal. After all, there is so much that we seek humanly to achieve. There are getting on for five billion people on the face of the earth seeking to achieve in this way, and the earth is corrupt and filled with violence through these human egos. This is the reason that the state of mankind is as it is. And yet, arrogant generation after arrogant generation deems it expedient to do exactly the same thing as was done before. “Promote human achievement, my own in particular,” the individual says when identified with the human ego. Again, we know these things, but what is caused to happen by reason of the fact that we know them? Do we merely persist in the old way, imagining that somehow something of great value is going to come from it? Or do we finally reach a point where honesty can penetrate our own human hearts and minds, so that we acknowledge the futility of the human nature way and state? Nothing that can be done in that stance will bear anything but the fruit of corruption and violence. We have the evidence of corruption and violence all around us but have been disinclined, for the most part, to acknowledge the point of origin, which has been in one's own heart and mind. We are, after all, still at the center of our worlds, the worlds which we have created, corrupt and violent. If we are capable of observing corruption and violence out there in the world that surrounds us, where did it come from? Honesty compels an acknowledgment of what we have spoken of as responsibility.

This awareness emerges to the extent that each one may say, “I emerge.” I emerge, not to fortify the human ego from which life force is to be withdrawn but to create, to allow heart and mind to be filled with the spirit of the living God. This is impossible until there is space for it, for one thing, and until there is the necessary substance to accommodate that spirit. We might call that substance spiritual substance. It relates to an internal atmosphere with the nature of the stillness which was spoken of yesterday evening, so that the frenetic activity of the human ego may subside and there may be substance and space for the spirit of the one I am. Thus the truth may be known, the truth of who I am.

We may each use these words to indicate what must be, and we each are capable of being that. I am here on earth to be that. In order for this to have meaning, to be real, to reveal the truth, there must be spiritual substance to accommodate my presence. This spiritual substance has been described as being generated out of material substance. When the attitude is clear in oneself there is adequate space and stillness and a true atmosphere of peace maintained. One of the primary elements by which this occurs is as life force is withdrawn from accusation. We are very familiar with the words, the instruction given long ago, "Judge not.” We are well versed in all the reasons why we shouldn't. Why is it, therefore, that we continue to do it, continue to accuse? This is not what one will do when the truth of oneself is present. But it is what is done when the human ego is present, masquerading as oneself. And so there is accusation. It seems there can develop a block in consciousness which prevents a realization and acknowledgment on the part of human minds and hearts that they continue to function on the basis of accusation. The individual would be inclined to say, “Oh no, I would never do that!” and do it right away.

There is another passage here that might be of interest, familiar also. You know all these things. Now here is something that is finally penetrating the human mind and heart apparently:

“And I heard…” This is not the truth of the person, but the human aspect which has begun to relinquish the control and government of the human ego. “And I heard a loud voice saying in heaven,” maybe that could happen this morning, “Now is come salvation, and strength, and the kingdom of our God, and the power of his Christ: for the accuser of our brethren is cast down, which accused them before our God day and night.” This is not really, “Once in a while, well we have a little accusation,” but is characteristic of the human ego as long as it exists. And it will exist as long as that characteristic is maintained.

“Therefore rejoice, ye heavens, and ye that dwell in them”—no more accusation. “Woe to the inhabiters of the earth and of the sea!” That relates to those who are centered in externals, physical and mental. “For the human ego is come down unto you, having great wrath, because he knoweth that he hath but a short time.” Well he has a short time, one way or the other. There are two ways, really. One is for the person to be eliminated because life is withdrawn, or the human ego might be eliminated and the person would still be there, living. It is one or the other, inevitably, and, for the most part in human experience, you know which one it has been. The human ego is characterized by this attitude of accusation. It thinks it sees things in others worthy of accusation. Why does it see those things? Because the character of accusation is in the person who is observing, regardless of whether there are things wrong in other people; presumably there are. There certainly are in us, we know that, so why should we exclude other people in that? All right, there are things that are wrong. But there are things that are wrong in us which color our outlook with respect to others, and the things of which we accuse other people are very revealing of what it is that is present in ourselves.

Finally, when the day dawns, we may at last, mentally and in feeling, begin to be aware that this is so; in which case we begin to share in the attitude of the one I am, regretting that this has been allowed to continue because life force has been extracted to keep it going. When we do become aware of ourselves, then finally we can say, with authority: “I withdraw my life force”; and the human ego can go smash! To hell with it! That is where it belongs. Another name for it is the devil. What sort of stance do we take in our momentary living? How do we view what is present with us? What is present with us is present in our own consciousness, and it is conditioned in quality by whatever it is that is present in our consciousness.

There has heretofore been a state characterized by the son of perdition—that’s the conscious outlook of the human ego—and the unholy ghost, the subconscious aspect of the human ego. If we withdraw life force from that, then there is opportunity to begin to experience in mind and heart, consciously and subconsciously, the Son of God and the Holy Ghost, respectively. Having reached a point where we are sufficiently sure of ourselves, the truth of ourselves, we may withdraw life force from the human ego and let it dissolve. Most people of course don’t have what it takes to let that happen because they are still convinced, being identified with the human ego, that if the human ego goes they go. And they are reluctant to go. The human ego is always reluctant to go, but it cannot exist if life force is withdrawn from it. And the only one who can do that is the truth of the person, himself or herself. No one else can do it for another. After all, it’s one’s own life force, the life force that comes to focus in oneself. The authority for the expression of that life force rests in the one I am. Individually speaking over the ages, generation after generation, the heavenly one I am has finally been under the necessity of withdrawing the life force from the human ego which characterized that person. Then there was a great weeping and wailing because of it. What a backwards view of things! The beauty, the strength, the creativity of the one I am, when brought forth in expression through human minds and hearts because the ego is gone, transcends anything that human beings now know.

Standing here, looking at you, receiving you all into my consciousness, I can say, “I love you.” I can also say, “I hate the human egos that may be present.” “Oh, one should never hate anything.” But what is hate? The absence of love. I don’t love any of the human egos at all, including my own; and until each one has that attitude nothing will happen. When I say I love you, as I love myself, that has something to do with the second great commandment, doesn’t it? And each one may take that attitude to others. But also there is no truck with the human ego.

It may be that a person who is just beginning to sense something of the truth must be handled rather delicately. I don’t think I need to handle you delicately, do I? If you’re real you can take it, because nothing that is said is any reflection upon what is real. It does call a spade a spade with respect to what is unreal, the human ego, that stinking entity which hangs around. Why does it hang around? Because you yourself give it life force! To the extent that any of us have done that, the human ego has remained on hand ready to betray at any moment. And we may observe betrayals occurring. Does that warrant accusation? “Oh look, that person is betraying!” Maybe. But I love the truth; do you? I hate a lie, which the human ego is. I don’t like you as human egos, at all! Over many years I have tolerated a lot of human egos, simply because I love what is making possible the existence of the human ego, always trusting that finally there would be an awakening in mind and heart to the truth.

Oh, human beings have been searching for the truth for ages. There is no need to search; it is right where one is. All that is required is to withdraw life force from that stinking human ego. Oh the human ego is so nice at times; usually when it wants something. Is it painful at all to consider these things? I think it’s grand. I enjoy it. How about you? (Congregation answered “Yes.”) Human egos are easily hurt. Are you hurt? Do you find that people can do and say things that hurt you? I suppose that is possible, to hurt human egos, minds and hearts that are involved with the human ego, and bodies too. There was One who was hurt worse than any, called Jesus. What injustice! What ingratitude! What physical suffering! Did He claim the hurt?—“Poor me! that I should be made to go through all this.” No, that wasn’t His attitude, because He had, in any case, chosen to go through all that. He was willing to receive what came to Him. Are we? Or do we try to duck out? We want it some other way, in which case of course we will find someone to accuse. “They are treating us badly. Oh what injustice we suffer! Oh what ingratitude! Oh what physical suffering!” Fine. What is wrong with that? It may finally, if we have enough of it, cause the human ego to resign, because mind and heart awaken. Mind you, the human ego never resigns without a battle; it wants to have a battle. You don’t need to give the human ego a battle; it is not worth it. Just withdraw life force and it is gone.

We share the opportunity to allow these things to occur because we are present on earth to do it; whatever our circumstances are, that is the way it should be; that is why we are here. So we accept the circumstances as they are and we do what needs to be done from the heavenly stance, from the stance of the one I am. Then there are no questions or doubts or hurts or any of these things. If we indulge in this sort of thing we have chosen to do it. We don’t need to do it. And it isn’t necessary to go searching around to talk to someone or to have someone get us out of it, or to clarify something. We accept and produce our own confusions. If they are to go away, why are they going to go away? Because you stop accepting and producing them, that’s all. It doesn't need anybody else. I can tell you that now. That is sufficient, done for all time! One must take responsibility for oneself. I do it! I am. I create. And also I dissolve; I withdraw my life force, in particular from the human ego. And when the human ego goes, the world of the human ego goes. Think about that. We have responsibility. We have authority. We have all that is necessary. Be honest enough to acknowledge it.

I made the statement back along the way, “Well we know these things.” If you agree with me, then what are you waiting for? We know these things but we continue so often to deny them. We think Peter behaved badly back along the way when he denied the Master, but we do it all the time. We deny the truth that we know, and we swallow the garbage of the human ego. It is the human ego swallowing its own garbage, not us. I never do that. And each one can say that. I never do that, and I speak the truth. If I say I do it sometimes, I am lying. I am lying because it is a false “I” who is saying that.

Let the unreality pass away. Let the truth prevail, because individually we know. I know. I don’t require you to tell me that it is so. Do you require me to tell you that it is so? If you do, what is wrong with you? So together we agree in the truth. We will never agree as human egos, you see, in a world full of human egos trying to agree, trying to work out agreements. What a waste of time! It just preserves the human ego, makes it seem important. It has to follow out all these lines of endeavor and eventually we’ll get the world into a proper shape. Well, maybe eventually the world will get into a proper shape, but not because of that. The world is full of corruption and violence because of the human ego, because I have not been present and in expression. I have been present but not in expression.

Together we provide a facility because individually we do it. We provide a collective facility by which human egos are dissolved from the face of the earth. That is the restoration, isn’t it? Dissolve the thing that blocks the experience of the oneness of heaven and earth, and the experience of the oneness of heaven and earth is there. Frantic endeavors to bring heaven on earth are futile because it is already here, just obliterated from human consciousness and experience because of the human ego. Dissolve the human ego: restoration. All very simple. Is the accuser cast down in our own experience, honestly cast down? How honest are we in this? How clear in heart and mind? How aware of the one I am?

© emissaries of divine light